"It is illegal for women to go topless in most cities, yet you can buy a magazine of a woman without her top on at any 7-11 store. So, you can sell breasts, but you cannot wear breasts, in America. "
Violet Rose (via c-icatrix)
This is one of my favorite quotes about sexualization/objectification vs autonomy of female bodies bc it’s so succinct
I just see myself sitting here and getting bitter and more depressed and having these shitty, bitchy thoughts and I don’t know what to do about it. But I fucking hate it. I don’t want to be like this. I don’t want to be this type of person. I want to be happy, and cheerful, and smiling all the time. I don’t want to bring everyone I care about down with my moods and my shitty feelings. I want everyone to feel lifted up and more excited when I walk into a room.
how to change
On the left: 134 lbs. eating 800-1000 cals a day. No energy, tired, and dizzy all the time. I was doing the 30 day shred and never touched a weight in my life. I lost 40lbs and thought I was being healthy. Yet I still wanted to lose some more weight. Scary, right?
On the right: around 160lbs (don’t use the scale anymore). Mostly lifting, and minimal cardio. Eating around 1800-2000 cals a day. Strong, confident, HAPPY, and love my body!
Salad with roasted butternut squash, asparagus and red onion, with a fried egg and some tahini dressing. So good!!!
I do too! But I also want to stick to my macros and calories… The good news is that soon my diet won’t be so restrictive. Yayyyyyy for bulking!!
And here’s a serving size of veggies. I guess it doesn’t look too pathetic in the picture. Maybe I’m just being pathetic because I’m realizing I have to eat less…
So, tonight I actually took the time to weigh out my frozen veggies, and I was shocked to see that the serving size was waaaaayyyyyy smaller than what I’d been eating. It actually pisses me off a little bit, because veggies were one of my favorite things to eat in my day, and they helped me feel full. But when I look at the actual serving size, it looks so ridiculously pathetic. I already have a fucking giant appetite as it is, I feel like there’s no way I could get used to eating such a puny amount….
Once again, Neva thinks she’s staying on track with her diet only to find out she’s been completely wrong.